I feel you, but you're so far from me

It was love at first sight.
From the moment I saw you, right up until the moment we met again, I knew it. You were the one, the only one, that I ever wanted, so much and right away. I don’t know how it happened, but it did. Your voice, your brown eyes, your beautiful body, your magical character that intrigued me; it was all there and it all made the difference. And when you smiled at me for the first time and when you talked to me, your voice was music to my ears. There was one problem, which at all minor – we lived in different cities.

It was during the summer, one of the times when my best friend suggested meeting at a bar with some old friends of his. I wasn’t in a good mood but I thought “What the heck? Why not?”. It was one of those days that everything was going wrong. I had just ended my university exam tests with terrible results I must say! But it wasn’t just that. I had second thoughts about where I was going with my life, what I am supposed to do after I finish studying, how my personal life was, and generally, I was hitting myself too hard. So the proposition for a night out came as an elixir to me. It would be nice to stop thinking for a while and just have fun.

We went to the bar a bit early just to have some drinks. After a while, his friends arrived. And then, a little bit later, you arrived. Yes, you were one of the old friends that were made to be my forever love! You talked, I listened; you smiled, I was lost in your eyes… And that’s how our story started. You were visiting my hometown for a few days and we fell in love within hours. We spend our days wandering around, having fun, kissing, and making love. I forgot all of my problems because of you. But then a bigger one came on. You had to go back to your town.

We gave a promise to each other; to keep this relationship going for as long as we could. But things were tough. We had a lot to overcome. First of all, couples live and thrive because they create memories together. And we couldn’t. We didn’t have the chance. The moment we wanted each other, it was the moment we realized that we were alone. You know; the hugs and the smiles or the expression of your face when you are angry or happy are things you want to share with your loved one. Of course, technology is there but is nothing like human touch mixed with the smell of your lover is inside your arms.

And never forget the jealousy factor. Both of us socialize with a lot of people in our life. So misunderstandings were a common problem. Trust was there, but if you’re miles away and, let’s say, you are not having a good day and your partner is out having fun, well I think you can imagine what might happen. Good communication is the key when dealing with such difficult situations but to be honest, the damage was done when it came to us.

Of course, we had our perfect moments but this was only when we were together.

Unfortunately, we couldn’t keep our promise. Although the feeling was there, at some point the separation became intolerable. For us, it didn’t work even though we wanted it so much. Maybe we didn’t have the right communication, the one we should have had, or we pictured life at its best and we failed. But at least we give it a try and we remember each other with love and tenderness.

And that’s I believe is the secret in our little life — to do your best, to give all of your love, all of your heart and create memories that, when played in your head, will make you smile.