How many times have you said that phrase to yourself?
How many times have you mumbled it under your breath?
You inhale. You exhale.
“Be patient” says that inner little voice in your head, once again . You count to ten. You count to a hundred. You can suck in all the oxygen in the world, but there comes a time when you are done doing that.
You feel like a victim. A silent victim at work, with your demanding boss all over you and a poor salary coming in for all your work. A silent victim in your house, your own home, when your partner treats you like garbage. A silent victim when your so-called friends undermine you and criticize your every move.
You label yourself. You are not a good employee, a good wife, a good friend. You are not enough.
You lower your head, drowning in your own tears. Devouring your emotions.
You lower your head a little more. Again. Once again.
You are not happy anymore. You are frustrated, angry and alone. You are stuck in a rut. You feel like you are in a pit of quicksand that drags you deeper and deeper down every single day.
You try to find someone to hold on to. You try and you fail. No one is going to pick you up. No one is going to do that hard work for you. No one except you.
You hit rock bottom.
You wake up one sunny morning, you open the curtains and you open your eyes.
This is the day. The day you’ve been waiting for.
Enough is enough.
No, it’s not okay to feel worthless. No, it’s not okay that no one respects you. No, it’s not okay that you weep and mourn your dignity all the time. Sometimes you’ve just got to stop saying that everything is okay. Because they isn’t. And you have to face it.
The time has come to gain control of your life again. To put your foot down. Ask yourself what kind of quality of life is it really that you want. Stop dictating your inner self. Ask yourself again “What do I want more in my life? Is it time to break free?” Take the time to envision what your life could be after making the changes that you want.
You have a choice. You do. You can choose to lower your head once more or lift it up. Don’t sabotage your emotions; don’t let the fear of the unknown hold you back. You deserve to move forward. Let the anger that you feel, especially for yourself, turn into a positive thing. Sometimes anger can help us take the risks that we want to, in spite of our fears.
Stick up for yourself. Say what you want to say. Don’t let time tick by. Don’t try to be somebody else in order to satisfy everyone. This is your life; you set the rules. Is it going to be difficult to find yourself again? Yes.
Get rid of the people that don’t appreciate you. Don’t let them drag you down. Stand up to everything that holds you back.
Make your own personal rebellion.
It’s never too late. No matter how old you are. If you think you had enough, we only get one life. We should be living it the way we want and deserve.
Mahatma Gandhi once said “Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” But most important in your world. Let that change be gradual and smooth.
Stop lowering your head anymore. Lift it up. Keep it high.
Once and for all.