You know what? I get it. I understand how it feels. There are times when we all feel inadequate; for our character, personality, looks, habits … whatever that is. The thing though is, at some point, you have to deal with this issue. Complaining and doing nothing about it is the easiest thing in the world — but how long are you going to keep this charade for?
The people who are insecure or feel inadequate, make the most noise. And those who have a habit of watching the people around them are able to detect them really quickly — after all, they won’t hide for too long. Whether we’re talking about friendships, relationships, family; it’s all the same.
I’ve seen it, I’ve experienced it the hard way and I’m here to tell you this: I’m not willing to put myself down, just so you can feel adequate enough. Sorry. This a great game, a marvelous and never-ending competition which, last time I checked, I didn’t enroll myself in. I’m not here to compete against anyone; I’m not trying to prove that I’m better than you. I’m not trying to show off my abilities or any talents. So please, don’t stand there giving me the mean look; I’m not trying to stumble myself as the best person existing on this planet. I can’t be and, for the record, I don’t want to either.
The mean looks might continue, along with the nasty comments and childish behavior. The difference is, that I won’t listen. And even if I do, I know damn well that this has nothing to do with me — I know who I am. I know what I can do, I know my strengths. But I also know my weaknesses. I recognize them, I’m trying to improve them. And if someone is better than me, I try to learn from them; I tell them how amazing that is. I’m not threatened, there is no reason to be.
You say that I have the best of anything, and of course it is natural for me to feel confident. About my looks, my figure, my clothes; anything. And it all came naturally, like pressing a small button. Maybe I do have a small part of this “best of anything”. But I’m sure that you never bothered to ask how I managed to get it. You never asked about the hard work, the sacrifices and the dedication. You never considered all these things I’ve had to put onto the table so that now, I can have “all the best” you’re talking about.
Keep trying to act like I stole the best of both worlds; I hardly care. All I know is that, if you wanted to achieve the zest of the best, you’d be out there achieving it; working for it, working on yourself. But you only choose the easy part — and this is the main difference between the two of us.
This is me, my abilities, my personality in all of their splendor. If this is way too deep for you, you are free to go elsewhere. Probably to people that you can handle the best without the fear of feeling inadequate. And congratulations, by the way, you lost all the meaning of true relationships.
I’d stay here and talk to you about it, but my guess is that you wouldn’t understand a word of it anyhow. See, I want you and the rest of the people around me to reach the best version of themselves, but you will focus of tearing me down instead.
Congratulations, yet again; now go take a hike, I’ve got things to do.