It’s you; your face, your arms around me, your soothing voice. You are the dream I dream when I am awake. In a world full of lies and pretentious smiles and friendships, you are the truth. You are the beauty in this ugly, messy thing called reality. You waltzed in with such self-confidence and honesty I couldn’t believe you were real. You simply cared.
I have to pinch myself many times in a day just to make sure that I am not dreaming. You look me straight in the eyes and your smile is so bright and wide there is no way it is fake. You are not afraid to speak your mind, even if it gets you into trouble; even if it makes the other person feel uncomfortable. You wouldn’t lie even if your life depended on it.
You are like a traveler from a different time; one, who still believes in values and ideals. You are the gentleman who would offer his seat to the elderly on the bus, but who would also approve of a punishment on a person who did wrong.
You are a tough guy with a soft heart; you are the kind of person who can protect his love, but who can also let his guards down just to let me in. We’ve trusted each other with our most humiliating and hurtful experiences, our dreams and fears.
You are the man who makes me laugh and forget about everything; the partner I always dreamt of having, the man I could easily imagine as father of my children. The best part is that I am all of those things for you too. It’s not just that we make plans together, we imagine the biggest of things and we have decided on the tiniest of details.
It’s that feeling I get that when I’m with you, that I can achieve just about anything. You saw something in me, I can’t quite understand, but now you are the person that makes me smile in my worst of days. You can make me laugh or cry or get mad; it’s amazing how one word coming out of your mouth can have that kind of effect on me.
No matter what, though, you can make me forget about everything. All the bad stuff goes away just because you are there. You always help me look at the bright side of things, even when everything is wrong and disaster is right around the corner.
You are that one, special, important person I can’t wait to talk to at the end of hard day and the one I will text in the middle of work just to let you know I am thinking of you. I could stay awake all night long talking to you and still have all the energy of the world the next morning.
In other words, you are a perfect constant in an altering and fluctuating world where everybody leaves — just because. You choose to stay, you want to stay, even when things get rough and tough and ugly. You are still there helping through, grabbing me with such an ease, it makes me feel we had been together in a past life.
In a reality that sucks, in a life where everybody is set out to get me you choose to hold my hand and walk by my side. You offer to listen, to advise and offer help; be it just a hug – oh, those hugs. You lay me on your chest and I can hear your heartbeat; somehow that heartbeat is the most soothing music I have ever listened to.
You are the dream; just you. And when you ask me what I am thinking of, it’s you and the things that are yet to come; the things we are yet to experience together. So, please just keep me dreaming and don’t let me wake up from this fairy tale.