Written By A Daughter.
I miss you, I miss you every day and I miss you even more so every minute of every day. I miss your face, I miss you voice, I miss your warmth. I miss that you always had an answer to my every question, I miss your spaghetti bolognaked, I miss your bad taste in television. I miss your shopping list, I miss your anxiety, I miss your smell. I miss our Christmas, I miss your protection, I miss your advice. I miss calling you, I miss knowing that you are there, I miss your house, I miss your presence.
That you for being the best daddy I could ever have. Thank you for telling me you loved me every day, thank you for making me tomato soup when I was sick, thank you for accepting me. Thank you for your kindness, thank you for being the first one to hold me. Thank you for your imagination, thank you for the jar of coins, thank you for my bedroom. Thank you for taking me to Spain, thank you for not being mad at me. Thank you for your ridiculous Christmas decorations, thank you for sharing your thoughts and fears with me, thank you for being proud of me, thank you for my rubber ducks, thank you for your poems.
I’m sorry I couldn’t chase away your demons, I’m sorry for wishing evil upon those who took you away, I’m sorry you have to see me cry. I’m sorry I didn’t take you to see Lee Evans, I’m sorry for lying to you, I’m sorry for thinking I was protecting you. I’m sorry I didn’t answer my phone, I’m sorry I got mad at you, I’m sorry I made you promise to get better. I’m sorry I left, I’m sorry I never knew, I’m sorry I always did. I’m sorry if I ever shamed you. I’m sorry for not being stronger, I’m sorry I told you what happened in Glee.
I wish I could have one more day with you, I wish I could hear your laugh again, I wish I could make fun of people with you. I wish you could teach me one more thing, I wish I had more time. I wish I could have a big plate of shepherd’s pie with you, I wish I had more CSI Sundays with you. I wish I asked you more questions, I wish you never had to feel pain, I wish I didn’t stay home on New Year’s, I wish I never blamed you, I wish you could call me again, I wish I could see your name, I wish you would say my name. I wish you would sing me the song. I wish I knew better, I wish it wasn’t too late, I wish I didn’t think it was my fault, I wish you told me, I wish I had the guts to ask you. I wish this was all a dream, I wish you could come back.
I promise to never let anyone take the memory of you from me, I promise to always sing loudly and very badly. I promise to learn to cook. I promise to make you proud, I promise to always be proud of you. I promise to not be what people expect, I promise to share your story, I promise to tell everyone about your greatness, I promise to never forget a detail about you. I promise to remember you every year, I promise to not forget your phone number, I promise to find home.
May you rest in peace, my friend, my soldier, my hero, our daddy.
Always and forever.
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