I will never forget you...

It’s been a while since we last saw each other and a little less since we last talked. I still miss you. I think, deep down inside, I’ll always miss you. I loved you once with all my heart, but you broke it into so many pieces over and over again that I am still trying to put it back together; but I still love you.

I guess that’s what happens when a great love ends. And I guess you’ll always be in my heart; whether I want you to be there or not. Parts of us are stuck in my mind, memories floating around in the background. I keep playing them over and over again, thinking of what I felt in those moments, good or bad. And I can’t help but wonder; what if?

What if we were still together? What if we had fought for each other? What if we had made it work?

With you I learnt how to love someone, how to care about someone and how to give myself completely to someone without being afraid of getting hurt. I experienced new and extraordinary feelings; ones I hope one day I’ll have for someone else, someone who won’t hurt me like you did. I found parts of myself in you that I didn’t know existed, I discovered a new me. I grew into the person I am today because of you, stronger for better or for worse because that’s what you taught me.

I used to be happy with you. You used to have a special place in my heart, one I know deep down inside you will always have. You changed my life, you showed me a different life, one I didn’t think I could have. But then you took it away and now you’re not here anymore. You’re not in my life anymore.

I lie awake at nights remembering the good times, thinking about the way you made me feel, hoping that you won’t forget about me, just like I will never forget about you. You will always be the one I lost, my one love that I knew I had and now have lost.

I may not always remember what you look like or your name but I will always remember you; I will always remember the way you made me feel, I’ll always remember how you made my heart race every time I saw you, no matter how old I get. I will always remember the butterflies in my stomach just before we met up and the way you left me breathless after every kiss –even when I start forgetting other things.

When you ended it, I told myself that if you were gone I could just carry on, move on with my life without you and some days you never cross my mind. But other days you are still the only one I think about. We missed our chance and it’s unfair that I still care and wonder where you are. One day I will move on no matter how much it hurts and I will stop wandering down the path of our past. Someday I won’t look for you everywhere I go, I won’t even look for you in my dreams.

Once upon a time, not so long ago, you were my everything and I don’t think time will ever change that. So whether I see you again someday or not, please just remember this; I will never forget you. You will always have a special place in my heart and I will always love you.